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Thursday, February 03, 2005

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im so dead ~ only cos miss green and miss incoming wants me to bring mr whitegold on march 5 to celebrate their birthdays at sentosa. miss incoming will bring mr eyes, and miss green will be bringing mr fiqq.

of course, i said no. and no. and no. and no. they threat me by telling me that they will persuade me until i agree to bring him. i tell ya, i'm very messy right now. they even made it worst by saying that by bringing mr whitegold, their bdae wish is complete.. phff, come on, whitegold is my friend..what has it got to do with their birthday wish? they dont even know who he is..gee..they made me feel so bad really..i told them that why dont i bring my sister instead..well of cos they said no. they kept saying its their bdae wish, but come on its against my wish..i really really wish they would just stop it.. and seriously appreciate my presence with them when we go to sentosa instead of trying to get me to meet mr whitegold.. *sigh* they promised that that day would be the most fun day ever..

there is absolutely nothing wrong with mr whitegold..really..he's a nice person really..its only me..the problem lies with me..even if i tell them the reason why and all, they wouldnt understand at all..never anyone did really..

i met mr whitegold abt 5 yrs 2 months at irc..chatted and chatted, we spoke on the phone couple of times and kept in touch till now..he initiated a meeting number of times but me, i didnt wanna meet him..the problem really lies with me..prolly he might feel that i didnt accept the way he looked like or anything..but no, its abt something else which is in me..nothing with him..and prolly after some time, he might feel frustrated or something i dont know..

miss incoming said i was being selfish, very selfish not to meet him..*sigh* see i told you they dont understand.. miss green asked do i care more about my ego or their wish *sigh* i told you they wont understand..its not my ego and neither its about him..i'd like to meet him but i cant make myself to do it..~!

// [this is my] beautiful disaster // | Thursday, February 03, 2005 | comment?

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

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woohoo! today is my bestfriend's 2nd yrs anniversary with her beloved boyfriend..gosh cant believe it really..not that i dont think they cant make it but, they're my very first friends who actually have been together for 2 yrs, erm i guess..cant remember la..sweet lil couple..hey screw those who thinks both of u cant even be together for 3 months..u did a good job proving them wrong..hhahaha

so, few days off blogging..now i cant sleep..
xfiles' being so psychotic abt PS2 codes..goodness, i just finish printing for him Grand Auto Theft: San Andreas and I have 6 more games to do..argghh..
well wolvy has officially left us..*sob sob* and he confessed he likes miss incoming..okay now who doesnt right?i think prolly all the guys there fancys her and miss green..hahaha..
during break had a feast at the back..xfiles joined..people kept giving him food and he passed to us..what the..he kept saying "eh dont eat too much maggi la linda, balding already.."
i said, "u seow ah...i only ate maggi for 3 days in a row at night, only cos there's no food okay freak...i swear if u say anything abt maggi and me going bald, im going to stuff my converse size 7 down your gut.." hahaha
he said, "wah u so fierce...really u going bald.." and he laughed..of cos i didnt stuff my converse size 7 down his throat..hahhaha

miss green and miss incoming and myself, we're getting closer..i love the kinda friendship that we have..we're not the too serious nor the too cool kinda people..we're more like the street kids who dont care what people think about our actions..we always try to accomplish something stupid, laughing at seriously stupid things..i dont know why we do it..more or less we're very different frm other teens there..wat can i say? we're so totally not the serious type..we cant be serious..but they're always serious like what the helling? always acting cool and all..so far no probs with them, still smile here and there..u noe wat they say abt putting 3 different people together can cause quite a stir..
we're 3 totally from head to toe different person..
well miss incoming is more like the sweet yet temperamental person with goodlooks, kinda boney, dramatic and strong determination but she's a weak person indeed..
miss green has the girl-next-door look but she's the extreme butt-kicker..u dont wanna mess her cos she'll kick yer butt and throw u buckets of harsh words, vulgarities is so not her type..she's filled with downright stupid things to do, i dont know how she does it but she does what she does best..hahahaha miss green is only 16 but got a body of a 20++ very matured kinda body..hahah according to xfiles la..both of them are the crazy ones most of the times..i can be just like them once in a while but most of the times, i'll be the one to watch and laugh their bona fide clown behavior in public..and 3/4 of the times, i get sabotage when it comes to boys...always purposely tease me with some unknown clowns and apeks and dont know la..whoever they please..that's us..
we called ourselves hollister..thanks to the tshirt that we bought together at bugis..hahaha i have green, miss g has black and miss incoming has pink...

// [this is my] beautiful disaster // | Wednesday, February 02, 2005 | comment?